i-love-you-lies

(written May 12, 2007)

a little lost girl
a little scared girl

i know you
i know your lies
your i-love-you-lies

but if i could write you a love song
it'd be the beat of my heart
the sound of my breaths

if i could drown, i'd drown in a sea of green

i lied to you
i didn't think i was, but i am

i found the proof, written in my own hand
so here i am, lying again
in a bed of reds
in a sea of soft

i never remember how bad it was
until it happens again
unless i read the anguish on the page

i'm a mess
in a messy bed
in a sea of green,
or was it red?